this is my first christmas in my own home
i’ve been on my own for 21 years, and have never had christmas - here – the place i call my home
i don’t feel stress – or pressure.
i feel at peace…i am exactly where i have always wanted to be.
i am sitting at home, in my jammies..sipping on a glass of wine before i head off to bed…
and wake up christmas morning- here
where i belong
i am cooking my first turkey tomorrow
i am so excited!!!
i will be cooking my first traditional dinner – sipping champagne
and wrapping my niece’s and nephew’s gifts
i will be traveling an hour to see them on Boxing day
they are calling for our first major snow storm of the season that day too.
as i relayed this info to my brother – he just told me to spend the night
that my niece wants to cuddle and spend time with her auntie.
there is so much dysfunction that surrounds my family situation
so much sadness.
but there is so much good. so much love left – in those that just choose to feel the love
i never, ever take for granted how lucky i am.
i have so much love in my life.
i have enough money to make the most amazing turkey dinner tomorrow
and to treat my family and friends to gifts from my heart.
(wait till i post what i made for my niece!)
wish me luck with my dinner tomorrow
there is a very good chance it won’t turn out.
if that’s the case – i live right beside McDonald’s.
it doesn’t matter
at the end of the day – each and every day – it’s just about the love.
have you loved enough?
Merry Christmas my friends. i love you.